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ONE - Spell your first name and last name without vowels: Ndr Hllnbch
TWO - Are you single?: I think so?
THREE - Whats your favorite number?: Either 7 or 3.
FOUR - What color do you wear most?: Black.
FIVE - Least favorite color?: Yellow.
SIX - Favorite candy?: Probably 100 grand.
SEVEN - What do you smoke?: Nothing.
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: I never want to be completely satisfied with my life.  Because then it will be time to give up.
NINE - There was no question here.: Damnit.
TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: Marching band .
ELEVEN - Do you shop at Hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: Nopeee.
TWELVE - How do you make money?: I don't really.
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: I don't call anybody my "best friend".
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: KU!
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: Quite.
SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: Unusual.
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: My button shoes (which I forgot to bring up to school with meee D.
EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?: I used to.
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: Somewhere musical.
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: Walking to my next class...
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Of course.

HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: The last question.
Honestly, what are you doing right now?: Watching the rain.
Honestly, have you done something bad today?: I think so.
Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?: Nooo.
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: My dad I think.
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: Yes.
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: I don't really get angry.
Honestly, do you bite your nails?: Yes because otherwise Tyler complains that they're too long.
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: Yes.
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: Yes.
Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?: I like people.

I don't feel like tagging just steal it .

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I dunno why I'm writing a journal, I just want to get stuff I guess out there, not really talking to anybody in particular.

So I've been doing my summer job (archery junior counselor at a day camp) and that's all fine.

I'm going to college in like, 6 weeks from this past Friday.  It's starting to really freak me out.  I just got my roommate assignment and I emailed her...I'm so anxious.
I signed up for the marching band since I couldn't figure out how to do it before.
I got my schedule and everything too, and when my classes are.  All music classes except for one math for first semester.

I finally wrote a song today, I've been hoping to do that for like a week and I finally got to play my own guitar and get some inspiration going...that was nice.

I just kinda have a lot on my mind that I don't know what to do with at the moment I guess.  Just kinda everything seems to be happening right now.

I dunno.

Anorexia
[/] You hate your body.
[ ] You have starved yourself.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[ ] You need to be skinnier.
[/] People always say you're skinny, but you think fat. (not fat, just not really skinny)
[/] People think you are way too skinny.
[/] You skip at least one meal a day.
[ ] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsion  
Total: 3

ADHD
[x] You are hyper most of the time.
[x] You barely pay attention to anything.
[/] You cannot cooperate with people well.
[x] You seem to never sit still.
[x] You talk all the time.
[/] You need attention 24/7.
[x] You aren't very shy.
Total: 6

Bipolar Disorder
[x] You can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[/] You are very irritable.
[/] You barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] You have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] You have used or abused alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] You have thought of/attempted suicide.
[x] You have the worst mood swings of anyone you know. (well, not anybody, but most people)
Total: 4

Bulimia Nervosa
[ ] You've thrown up all your food at one time
[ ] You thrown it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] You have little control over how you eat.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[x] You eat fast.
[ ] You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.  
[/] People think you are way too skinny.
Total: 1.5

Conduct Disorder
[ ] You are a bully.
[/] You threaten other people.
[ ] You often find yourself in fights.
[x] You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[/] You are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] You have raped/molested someone.
[/] You destroy property on purpose.
[ ] You always lie.
[x] You've stayed out all night.
[x] You have/attempted to run away from home.
Total: 4.5

Depression
[x] You are always, or normally, feel sad.
[ ] You always, or normally, are crying.
[ ] You find no hope in your future.
[ ] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] You always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[ ] You are anti-social.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] Everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 4

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
[x] You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] You have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] You have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] (there's apparently nothing here...and it makes me annoyed)
[ ] You are afraid you will get an STD, or AIDS.
[x] You have to check some stuff over again.  
Total: 5

Schizophrenia / Anxiety
[x] You often have hallucinations or sudden memories you can't escape.
[/] You can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] You think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] You have an extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[/] You have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite/same sex.
[/] You do not take care of your hygiene as much as others say you should.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You often talk to yourself.
Total: 4.5

All around total: 29.5

0-5: You're very normal.
6-15: You're fine.
16-20: You might be okay.
21-30: You have problems.
31-35: You have really bad problems. You might need to see a therapist.

Hahahaha I almost have really bad problems XD

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I found some inspiration, and I'm writing a short piece now. It's awesome.
It's about a girl who forgot.
Dunno where it'll go from here, but that's what it's based on.
Only time will tell!